@Oaktree thanks gorgeous. I think it's just loneliness. While I am not working I spend so much time at home that I think I have cabin fever.
My teeth have been causing me pain but until I have the money to get them attended to I just have to take pain killers and deal. Even though there is the government dental scheme I just don't have enough left over from Centrelink once I've paid the mortgage and all the other grown up bills.
I don't have a lot of friends anymore, until a couple of years ago I was living with my best friend and Godchildren but when I moved back to my own house my best friend cut all ties with me, along with my Godchildren. During the 8 years I spent living with her and the kids she made it difficult for me to maintain friendships with my other friends. She would text and call me if I was visiting other friends and they got so sick of her interruptions they cut ties with me. I didn't realise what she had done until I moved back home and saw that I was left with only a couple of good friends, one who lives in the US and my oldest friend. My oldest friend has other things on so I don't get to see her much even though she lives 5 minutes away.
With my front teeth missing I am too embarrassed to go out, I haven't been to church in over a year.
I shouldn't complain, there are plenty of people who have it worse. I should be grateful I have Sane and plenty of shows on Foxtel to keep me occupied.
Thanks for listening, it's nice to be able to share 🫂😍
