What am I doing?

[Loz_3647]

Honestly do not know anymore. Whilst this is all well and good there is no REAL person to talk to about all this sh*t. I need a REAL person I can talk to because rn it is all in my head and I can't f*cking take it 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯 My body is exhausted and my mind is overwhelmed. That big black cloud has come over - it didn't leave...I was ignoring it - but now it's waving it in my face. I can't take this. I feel like I'm exploding. Seriously cracking here. I am done feeling and being like this. You can't tell me there is another way forward.... because I can hear those words screaming in my head. And it is literally the only way. Im close to breaking point. 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯

[Jynx]

Hey @Loz_3647 - totally legit that you want to talk to someone, face-to-face. We are social creatures by nature and need that physical presence sometimes to feel okay. Is there anyone you could go visit, or ask to come stay with you tonight? 

If you're fnding yourself planning things, and need to have people around you, emergency dept is always an option. I know it's not ideal and can be quite a taxing experience, but it would mean being able to speak to someone directly and let them know you're in an extremely bad way right now, so they can provide you with some more hands-on support. 

[Loz_3647]

Got nobody....and nobody gives a crap if I'm in a bad way or what I'm dealing with....on my own....and absolutely done...I honestly don't want to be here....what am I here for...nothing but sh*t

[TideisTurning]

Hey There @Loz_3647, I’m TideisTurning, one of the peer workers here. It sounded like you had a really rough night last night and I’m sorry to hear it’s been tough going. I just wanted to check in to see how you're travelling this morning? 😊 Just letting you know I'm sitting here with you.