09-01-2019 04:28 PM
09-01-2019 04:28 PM
This has to be the hardest thing I have ever done - looking for a new job. So i already have a part time job, and i do understand that some of you on here have no jobs. So I probably shouldn't complain.
But it is so hard to look for work. I am looking daily sometimes twice or three times a day.
And because there is nothing I am getting more and more anxious and depressed. I feel that my life will never get better, that i will never be able to work more hours. And the thing is I don't even know if i want to work more hours.
Because we are financially stressed I feel that i am to blame. i feel that if i didn't have a mental illness i would be able to work more hours and support the home and family better. I wouldn't have to hospitalised so many times a year because i have "breakdowns and cannot cope".
I'm just finding that it so damn tough out there in the workforce. I have even tried a different industry but nothing.
And then I think to myself - if people with no mental illness can't find work how the hell am i meant to.
Feeling emotional, frustrated, depressed and lost with my life 😞 😞
09-01-2019 04:49 PM
09-01-2019 04:49 PM
I can relate to what you've said here @BlueBay. I used to have a successful career in the government until my first ever breakdown. Now I have no job, but am struggling financially mostly because I never put any of my money away for a rainy day. Now I am studying with the aim of completely changing careers. I want more from my life than to just launguish on the DSP.
I want a life to be proud of for me. I want to reach retirement and say to myself "yep, that's a life well lived". I don't think I could do that right now.
If you could work the perfect job, what would it be like? Me, I know I can only work part time at the end of my studies. I am only going to be studying part time too. I know too much stress that would be involved with full time could see me relapse. I so want a better life than what I am currently doing.
09-01-2019 06:33 PM
09-01-2019 06:33 PM
Hi @Queenie sorry for the late reply.
The perfect job?? - I still love admin especially typing. Over the years I have moved from administration to pharmacy and back and forth. Atm I’m in pharmacy. Completely different careers.
Pharmacy pay is crap $20 hr. And hasn’t gone up in years. It’s a very low wage fir all the knowledge you need to know eith all the products.
My very first was working fir the government. Then stayed home for 10 yrs to raise 3 kids. (Thst was the most rewarding job ever). Then got a part time admin job in school camp. Left after 2 years Pharmacy after that. Then back to admin. Now pharmacy agsin
I don’t feel thst I am now qualified for admin work. It’s so different. You need to know so much more
It’s just really tough
09-01-2019 06:43 PM
09-01-2019 06:43 PM
Sounds like you would've enjoyed one of my past jobs working in government sector @BlueBay. In a past life many many moons ago I was in administration doing medical reporting and transcription. It was something I really enjoyed before office politics got in the way.
Do you think you could do a cert III in office administration? That might help you get up to speed on what you need to know?
09-01-2019 07:08 PM
09-01-2019 07:08 PM
I’ve got a certificate iv in admin @QueenieWent back to TAFE a few years ago to update myself. I would like to do a medical receptionist course. But then I’m worried that no one would employ because of my mental health.
09-01-2019 07:09 PM
09-01-2019 07:09 PM
09-01-2019 07:15 PM
09-01-2019 07:15 PM
Hi @emg_1 Thankyou for your reply.
I like your idea of mental health turn into positive eith a job.
But what kind of jobs do you suggest? I have no idea.
when all my mentsl health as well as ptsd and childhood sexual abuse I had a thought thst I could help others to speak out snd get hrlp. Snd not wait over 30 years like I did.
I would love to talk to children about childhood sexual abuse. But that prob wouldn’t happen. I have no idea where to even begin with this thought.
09-01-2019 07:21 PM
09-01-2019 07:21 PM
09-01-2019 07:45 PM
09-01-2019 07:45 PM
Hey @emg_1
thanks for the link. I just looked in my area but nothing around.
I feel I don’t have enough confidence or self esteem.
But I will think about this snd could tslk it over with my psychologist and see what she thinks.
Do another course - I don’t even know that I could do thst. .
I did have a grand plan of doing a massage therspy course a few years ago and then I could work from home. Well that course only lasted 3 weeks. I couldn’t concentrate couldn’t remember things and had a really mean teacher. I ended up leaving because I was crying going there and leaving at night to go home. But it was such a good idea. It never eventuated.
I don’t know I’m not very confident or positive.
I will keep looking for work 😊
09-01-2019 07:47 PM
09-01-2019 07:47 PM
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